I cannot breathe anymore
But I don't really care...
I'm getting scared now cuz I'm losing my grip in live
I feel sadness covering every single happy thought
I have still left...
I want to cry but I can't...,
I don't want to be a coward at my last stay here...
'Cuz this is excactly what I want
Don't I ?
I still feel so scared,
does that ever end ?
It's getting dark all around me...
I'm starting to feel dizzy...
I see the wounds covering my arms and legs...
The blood drips on my bed...
I drop the knife on the floor, and see the blood glittering on the knife,
Now I lie down
I stare in front of me,but I can't really see anything...
It's too dark....
I'm too dizzy....
I feel so strange...sadness,pain...
It hurts so much,
but I must not call for help,
Cuz I have to get through this now...
and then this wil all be over...
Just like I want...
I now can't hold my tears anylonger...
I feel the teardrops dripping over my face
It taste's bitter but still sweet and warm...
It feel's good and convidencial...
But still I feel so sad so stupid...
I hate my myself so much!!
I know I don't deserve to die...
But I don't deserve to live either...
I had to make a choice....
I choose to die..........................