as my thoughts drift away

to that one moment, of utter joy...meeting you

I realize, every x- mas to come

will always have...something..blue

a sadness that will not go away

and will always be there...somehow

always wondering, what you are doing

and where you might be...now

and as tears fill my eyes

knowing I'll never hold you near

touch your face, and love you....

with all of my heart....my dear

I've come to know, that even if I'm content

I will always feel in me a need

for no matter how much I love of or feel loved

I will just...never be..complete

and it fills my heart with sadness

that this love, that we were allowed to share

just can't be, 'cause.....

you simply..don't want me there

at your side.....

where I'm supposed to be

sad, 'cause you don't want...

....to..be here..with me.....