I feel so alone...
I know I can talk to you...
But just don't know how...
Don't want you to know that I'm hurt...

I was lying in your arms the other day..
We talked about your friends childeren...
You said you loved that little one...
It would make you feel the king of the world...
If you had an child off your one...

A while ago was pregnant with yours...
But I didn't want it...
It was not the right time...
It all went so fast...

We only knew eatch other for 4 weeks...
It was very clear to me...
I wanted to end the pergnancy...
So I did...

But now several moths later...
I still have regrets about it...
Even do I knew I had no choice...
When I tolded you I was pregnant...
That I didn't want it...

You actuelly never said anything...
So I thougt it was okay...
Everything went downworths from that day...
We split up...

Then that day I went to the clinic...
I walk in...looked around...
Wondering what do I had to do...
I wanned some body close to me...

To hold me and say..it gonna be allright...
You let me go through that all alone...
The daults...the pain...so much running through my mind...
Still I got through with it...

Wen I went home afterworths...
Sitting in my car...
My friend called and I cried cried cried...
But still I know it was the right thing to do...

Maybe this is the price I have to pay...
Because even though I don't want another baby...
I have feelings that are so strong lately...
That I really do want an other baby...but I do not...
It just doesn't make any sence...

When does the pain stop...
Why can't I talk about it...
Does it stay for a while...
Or does it never stop...