why do we always forget
why do we have to feel the pain
everyday,
no moment passes or we think
about everything that can go wrong or better, went wrong
they say life is nothing but a joke
i can believe it, i can understand
but why don't i feel it
why can't I just enjoy "the joke"
my mind slips everytime
to all the lost moments
all the people we lose
only tears come back, day after day
but happiness stays out, day after day
so does the light in my heart
it keeps out...
And it hurts to be alone, every minute
every hour
i realise i'm on my own
and no one can help by living my life
not even i can..
but i won't live to feel pain
can't handle the pressure
to be happy, to enjoy
i can't, i'm weak
i have pain everyday
because i want to be someone else but me
but i'm stuck in me..
hated, just by myself
i can't live to be me...
it just isn't a reward
it's hell