What is it that makes me feel like this?
A lot of things happend
I tried to forget them, but that wasn't working.
Is it the feeling of being unloved, that kills me so much?
That makes me cry..
Are it those words what I say? That make me unloved?
Maybe is it the way I'm threating people..
I thought I could help..
I tried.. And it failed..
What is it.. I don't know!
But there's something.. And it hurts..
It hurts so much that I cry at night..
And cry at daylight..
And the people who I love.. Don't they see there's something wrong with me?
Don't they see I'm scared..
Scared to live and scared to die..
Scared for pain and scared for joy..
Don't they see I don't laugh anymore??
What is the way to handle this pain?
What is the way to push it away?
Maybe I'm waiting for a miracle..
Maybe there's no end of this feeling..
Maybe it's mend to be..
But WHY? Why me, why she, why he??
Maybe it is the feeling of hating myself..
Is there anyone out there, who can help me?
But if I can't help myself, and the people around me can't help... Who can ?