Thanks for being there for me..
           Een though we don't know eachother very long..
           You make me feel more selfconfident about me..        

Tanks for letting me be who i really am..
           Wthout a lie or something like that..
           Ireally appreaciate it that you take me for what i am and
           Not for who i might need to pretend who i am..
I hope we can keep in touch much longer..
           Cause i really want to know you better..
           You're a person which are very rare in this world..
There really aren't much people like you..

So thank you for giving back my selfconfidence..
I've really lost that cause what i've been through..
Those were very rough times for me..
Times in which i realy wished to die..
I can't say i've lost those feelings..
There still haunting me..
They won't let me have a happ life..
For everything i need to pay..
Always those pretending laughs..
Never to have really fun..
It's always only from the outside..
Please, my biggest wish is to die..
But i'm scared to hurt my friends..
I just can't
So many times..
I planned what i would do..
Go to the station and drop me in front of a train..
I was to scared i didn't dare..
Even with a knife on my wrist..
I was to scared to really do it..
And now i'm still alive.....

Please help me get my selfconfident back..
I know you can..
Thanks again.....

Written by myself