fear for the nothing that's waiting for me
tears in the night who are not ment to be
feelings, emotions from far far away
once I was happy, needless to say
again I must leave you for I cannot speak
I leave you your questions because I am weak
you kept me safe but I had to break lose
please just once more except what I choose
I love you, I need you, want you by my side
I hate you, don't need you, for I have once died
my doubts they will kill me, they'll drown me this time
his hands, they still hold me, forbid me to climb
forgive me as I'm weak, for I still need this pain
don't search for any answers, it's just me who's to blame
hold me, forget me, leave me just here
no one will ever make pain disappear