I said:
"My time is yet to come,
so i'll be yours...
Forever!"
But that isn't true
'cause i was death many times
only my body and soul wanted to stay...
and today was such a day...
When there were blooddrops,
Death visit my house...
He said that:
My time was come...
I had to say"goodbye"to my friends...
And the ones who didn't love me...
Now would see how much they really cared about me...
And the ones who used me...
Now would see what they did to me...
I know that one day:
You'll miss my hugs...
And I know that one night:
You'll miss dreaming about me...
But when I almost became a friend of death...
My angel saved me...
she said:
"Girl, don't do this...
There are to many people that care about you...
and it doesn't matter if the people tomorrow
see your wounds instead of your scars...
Keep on living, girl...
But don't..."
My heart always said:
"If you want a happy future...
you must go back in the past..
and destroy EVERYTHING!"
But I knew if I would go back...
I had to destroy the goodbye you once said...
But I was too late...
And there goes my world again,
"Goodbye"
You said it...
God damn...
I hate it...
I hate it when you do that....
Yes, I hate it...
NO!!!
I hate YOU!!!
You turned my world into darkness...
Do you now understand why I can't love somebody...
They play with me...
Like I am a doll...
A stupid teddybear full of scars...
Would it be easier to become the friend of death?
Now that my blood flows...
Drops dropping on the ground...
Tikking like the rain does...
On my window when I fall in sleep....
Would it be easier to say:"Goodbye"?