I can still feel the pain,
The pain of his rejection,
A my feelings and attempts in vain,

Now by accident I found out,
He got what he deserved,
Someone great, to show him what love’s all about.

Even tough I’m happy for him,
I’m left alone frozen in time,
Because for me he wasn’t just a whim.

I found in him warmth and salvation,
A way to cope with my hurt,
But now I’m lost in contemplation.

Is it foolish to feel hurt,
Is it foolish to feel alone,
Aren’t these emotions I should have outgrown?

On one hand I’m incredibly happy for him,
But on the other I can’t cope with the situation,
I wish I could put everything I’m feeling on cessation.

I still replay that one kiss we shared in my mind,
Feeling selfish in feeling alone,
Still searching for salvation in the dark cold night,
Still searching for a love I am unable to find…