Quiet..

When I felt you hand on my cheek
It felt liked you loved me..

When your hand hurts..
I just knew.. it wasn’t love..
It was hate..
And I knew.. that this wasn’t normal..

You are feeding the pain and it hurts so much more and more..
You don’t see it..
Eyes blind to see..

Nobody knew that I wasn’t happy..
You asked me to keep it quiet..
If I didn’t?
You would hit me everyday..
You already did that..
But I wanted to keep it quiet..
They couldn’t help me so why should I say it?

…

17:40
15-01-05




Not Perfect..

You yell at me..
‘Cause I’m not easy to handle..’
You hate me..
‘Cause I’m not perfect..’

Don’t want this life..
I hate it..
Do you want it?
You can take it if you want..
I don’t even care what happens next..
Will I die?
Will I fall in love?

The story keeps going on and on..
I have to live this life piece by piece..
You don’t know how that feels..
Do you want to know?
You can have this life..

Just..
Let me die..
I hate life!
Especially this one!

17:45
15-01-05




Falling back..

Falling back into the world where I just came out..
I thought I was feeling better..

I hoped no more scars..
I hoped no more blood..

Couldn’t help it..
It just came..

Save me..

From myself..

Please..

17:50
15-01-05


Xxx Midnight