What do you do when nothing seems to matter anymore?
What if you sometimes hurt like never before?
I try to hold on to my belief
and pray to God for calmness and rest to receive.
I am looking for hope
because now I can hardly cope.
Right now, I'm living in fear.
Please God, I'm praying: 'let me know you are near'.
I'm wondering in all the tumult:
'Why does life have to be so difficult?'
I'm just tired of feeling selfhate
But I will fight it because I don't want that to be my fate.
I'm determined to overcome my fear
But I can only do that with God being here.
So I give it all to God right now and pray
and trust it will somehow turn out okay.
For a change I'd like to feel some happiness
But the fears in me make everything feel less.
I don't want to die
But I think of suicide now so I wonder why.
Why do bad things/feelings keep happening to me?
Living 'easy', I think it's not meant to be.
So I'd like to ask you: please pray
as you always do in such a supporting way.
That is something that will never break us apart
So for that I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart.