My excuses to a friend
My fault
It is my burden
When I did that
And I said to you
’It’s not that bad’
Unwanted
I did hurt you
So bad
It’s sad
I said
It was ok
Knowing it was not
Then you started to do it too
You, who was against it al along
Why did you listen to me?
Why did you trust me?
You knew that I was lying
Trying
To make the pain you felt for me
Disappear
Now places are turned
You who was against it
Started
Cuz I said
“It is not that bad,
Believe me”
And you did
How stupid was I
How does guilt
Crawl in my veins
You believed me
Me
The sinner
And I am supposed
To do nothing
To sit here and look at you
Doing what I did
I understand now how you felt
But I also have guilt
How stupid
This is
Again you trusted me when I said
I’ll keep my mouth about it
I did not
I almost started myself again
And guilt still crawls in my veins
I needed to tell
Someone
So I could
Relax
A bit more
Knowing he would keep an eye on you
While I can’t
I live at the other end of the world
What did you expect anyways?
But yes
I should have kept my mouth
And yes
You can be angry at me
For all what I did to you
Sorry came too late
As always
But can you forgive me
For I did it cause
You mean a lot to me?
For it was of worry
I know that
I do not
Deserve your trust
But
Let me be rude
And
I do ask you
To trust me
Again
And
Again
Not knowing
How many mistakes
I can make
In the future
...
I am sry
For telling
There are no
Excuses
Still I have
Alot of them