untill god has spoken

i will be broken

the scars will not heal

and i can not reveal :

THE LIGHT I HAVE INSIDE



untill i accept who i am

i will never understand

why i have this fucking curse

and if it will be worse



untill i have not defeated the pain

i will never know what will remain

of my sad sorry life

and if i finally put away the knife



untill my heart is no longer fixed with glue

i can truely be the one for you

till then i will be lost and weak

i wish i could take a peak :

OF WHAT MY FUTURE WILL BRING



untill the winter is still here

i'm living my life in fear

my tears will never dry

and my everything is just one big lie



untill light has found me

i will live in vein and i'll never be free

i'll be captured by darkness settled in hate

help me before i start to fade



untill i'm out of the hurt

i can not get back at who treated me like dirt

i can not get rid of my stains

that i made with cutting in my vains



so untill the good is on my side

i have to wear a mask and hide

i have to be quiet and sit still

or i can be writting up my last will