I don't care nor feel anymore if I let someone down.
I believe that I need it to be free.
I was so used to my life with you around me.
I don't know anymore....
The real me.

All these tears that I've cried.
She must be tired of taking care of me,
but it's what she does best
and I'm a liar
because really it's what I need.

Maybe these chains of loneliness will set me free.
Free....?

And I thought that I found myself today?

I analyze everything,
just to know
just to understand
what the words people say to me mean.
I answer by questioning all that I need.
And I want to...
to surrender.
I want to see all the sides.
All the faces...
The real me inside of me.

I see I’m not perfect,
but that’s all I see.
This can’t be everything I see?!

My outline is solid
and some parts are made up of crime.
And the things that people say
just burn in my eyes.
Again...
I want to surrender.
I want to find some comfort,
in the spaces between the lines.

And I thought that I found myself today...
Under a star studded dark blue sky.
Past my memories,
past regrets,
past reasoning.
Some memories give flashes of violence in my minds eye.

Sometimes I feel trapped in a world of lies.
Locked away within my dreams.
My fading pulse silence my cries and screams.

There was a freedom in her arms.
Love for a time.
She would protect me from all harm.

And now,
when the shadow has fallen over me,
in the shadows that steal the light.
I've become too reckless.
Since there's nothing to loose,
nothing left to fight.

People don't want to hear what I'm thinking.
All my doubts and fears.
I can't let people look in my eyes,
because in time they'll find,
that there's no reason why I'm here.

A single tear falls.
The curtains of my eyes close once again.
Agony and fear will remain within.
To be free of the past.

I'm alone in the dark.
I can't taste,
I can't feel,
I can't smell,
I can't touch,
I can't see.
Nothing seems to stand between me and the abyss.
I am all alone.
Nothing but shadow and flames...

God,please stop this pain I feel within
God,please forgive me for if I have sinned...???