I'm looking out of the window
Following the rain drops with my blurry eyes
Tears are filling my eyes once again
The pictures and memories slowly fading in

Long, lost memories...a happy smile
The time I hardly can remember
The time I almost don't know anymore
I want to forget it, only to make myself believe that there's no better way

Tears are streaming down my cheeks
Slowly dropping of my chin
I feel them falling on my hands
Something so real on my bare skin

Screams, blood in my mind
He hit her on her nose, the bone that broke
I was staring, couldn't believe it
One scream: "Go back to bed or I will hurt you!"
Makes me go back to bed and wonder
Don't he know he already did?

The tears are coming, with no end
My mind is over working
I'm feeling sick and alone
I just want this all to end

"You can't wear them, you whore," he's looking at my bracelets.
"Why?" "Because I say so" No good reason, but enough to make me cry
Run upstairs, sobbing on my bed putting on the music that makes me get it thrue...but for how long?

I feel like the victem of God's bad days
I grab the razorblade and stare at it
Old, stained blood on the sharp side
Making my will bigger
I'm feeling almost sorry for what I'm going to do

"Take off your bracelets and let him go," my mom's tired voice.
"No I won't let him control my life...like you," she's leaving
I grab the scissor, wound my leg
And sorry for what I did

Slowly making little stripes om my wrist
Tease myself with all that's wrong
Spread my blood all over my arm
Making it painfull with my tears

Voices speaking..."WHAT'S THE THING ON YOUR LEG??"
"Just a scratch"
They all know
But they still deny 3 years after it

I clutch the blade into my hand
As I said before I want it all to end
Watching the blood gulp out
Feeling like I'm gonna fall

The milions of suicide letters I wrote
All trown in the fire
I'm gonna change my life forever
I'm not gonna be emo anymore

Grab a pen, write a note
"Hey guys, I'm gonna leave y'all.............
Never finished the suicide letter
Dead comes and gets you when you want

Everyones so happy
I'm happy
But once in a day
I think back

My mom walks in, my brothers outside the door
She screams and cries
She found me...dead, my body cold
Lying in my blood stained clothes

They thought I would be normal for life
They thought I give up on cutting
They thought I give up my suicide thoughts
They thought I would or even could never do this

All of them are crying
I'm seeing my own funeral
I'm sorry...I'm sorry
The words are going to my head....
I would've never left you if they hadn't hurt me so much