It’s so hard living with the thought that you can walk true that door every second
Trying to avoid you
I just don’t feel like talking
Maybe it isn’t fair that I just don’t tell you
That I can’t see you anymore
Think about all the things you did to us
That wasn’t fair
And I don’t understand how my brothers
Just can forgive you
Like nothing ever happened
Still living with a scary feeling
Like I always have
Seeing the memories
When I was sitting there up my bed
With my own arms around me
Trying to protect myself
I still hear you yell
Trying to come inside my room
I still hear my mom scream
Trying to stop you
You didn’t understand
You were so drunk
Yelling that you just wanted to see your daughter
Every time again and again
It’s engraved in my memory
All the times you were fighting
Throwing our worlds upside down
But somehow I just miss you
I miss you trying to make it up to me
When you know I won't see
The things you do
To do right
'Cause in my eyes you'll always do wrong
I just can’t
I just can’t
Talk to you anymore
I just can’t
I just can’t
See you anymore
I just can’t
I just can’t

I’m living in the past