Behind closed doors, where no one knows
4:00 in the morning
Claustrophobic in her bed
Pen and paper in her hand
Suicide in her head
The pen glides across the paper
Yet no words flow out
Shes persistently quiet in her corner
And tries desperately not to shout
Her lips and chin quiver
A tear cascades from her eye
A mentality that it wouldn't be hard
Flew out forcing her not to cry
Hours of endless torture she screams
The years were wasted with you
You said it'd be forever
Yet somehowe our days are through
Her hands start shaking
As she finally scribbles out her goodbye
Her tragic ending decision
She had been forced to die
10:00 in the evening
Unmoved in the same place
Heart still flooded with pain
Tears still pouring down her face
She feels she is trapped
In an awful series of dreams
A conspiracy against her
At least that's how it seems
She glides her hand over a razor
And knows she cannot win
The rust on the blade taunts her
As she rips it through her skin
Blood trickles out her wrist
But she feels nothing at all
She crosses her legs, and folds her arm
And warped her body into a ball
Rocking back and forth
The pain starts to set in
No more dealing with heartbreak
A life without her begins
She attempts not to think
And gradually loses her mind
She's suffered different circumstances
Of each and every kind
Her throat begins to burn
She starts begging for one more breath
She gave her soul up
And placed it in the hands of death
Puddles of blood around her
A silent tortured room
If only these walls could talk
They'd proclaim her appalling doom
How she waited so very long
And died for the fear of nothing better
A world she tried to shun
But the love of her life wouldn't let her
How she was murdered by the emptiness
And knowing she was right
And how she danced with distress
But died this very night
~28-06-04~