Did I let myself go too far
Did I ever refuse to stand up for myself
Now I break down and split in two

I watch myself teary-eyed
I see myself with bruises on my body
Every move hurts and itches
Every step breaks down the new stitches

Perhaps I need to feel bad while feeling so good is most scaring
Maybe I'm too familair with the floor, standing up is useless
Possibility comes up that I've been sick my entire life

The heart beats are running out
The oxygen has blacked-out
My hands are tied to my legs and my eyes are glued down 

But I find myself in the open air with green fields
The beautiful flowers I smell and I can't forget how to smile
Even if it takes every last drop of life

Untill my dying day, I'll smile for you..