Lost in this darkness --- 22/10/2005 --- 23:00 uur
Looking at my life, and I can’t understand what I mean
Maybe one day I’ll wake up and this world will just be a scene
My inside is crying
And my soul is dying
Slowly fading away
There’s just no reason to stay
I have to try to break free from the thoughts in my mind
Until there’s nothing at all to find
I need to eat and I need to sleep
But all I can do is weep
Have to stand up to be stronger
But I don’t have the strength any longer
I keep up pretending
But my fight is almost ending
My energy has run out
I’m breaking down, no doubt
Oh, this night is too long
And there’s nowhere I really belong
Death is saying ‘hello’ again
Wrapping around his chain
I know I need to scream so loud
But my voice hasn’t allowed
My voice is silent
But my emotions are violent
I guess this is it
This is all I can admit
Bring me peace of mind
But God has gone blind
He has forgotten me
So please let me be
By myself and all alone
Crushed down to the bone
I need to say goodbye
So this will be my last try