One more fatal mistake
I didn't want to be burn,
they forced me out.
I'm a fatal mistake.
I drag my nail along my skin.
Just to cut one more time.
I promise I'll be fine.
Watching my arm turn red
God yes pain
The sting.
I'm a fatal mistake that just had to happen
so 15 years later I'd lie in my bed wishing I was dead.
Just for the numbness to go away.
I see a little blood.
Did I do that?
I start to shake,
as ecstasy fills me
Pain
Just one more hit I'll be okay.
Not another morning.
One more day I won't wake.
One more scratch,
I'll wear a sweater.
Watching the skin swell
how beautiful
The pain burried so I can escape one more day of them not knowing.
I'm selfish you see because I want to die not caring who it effects.
One more hit then I'm done.
15 years, 15 times
When will the rope stop snapping?
The cut stops bleeding?
The pill stops coming back?
One more hit maybe then I'll be done?
One more scratch hopefully it heals before summer.
One more bleed,
I promise that's it.
I'm addicted I admit it but my body refused to die,,
it holds on ...
I sold my soul,
I promised myself to him ...
but that's eternity
One more hit
maybe he'll stop stopping me?
One more scratch
Dear God I love it
To feel; to know I'm not dead ... yet.
One more cut maybe to late?
But then I can go out feeling...
For once ...
One more scratch it will mend ...
Eventually ...
One more time ...
Then I'm done ...
One more how many is that?
One more might be wrong ..
Cause maybe, just maybe my angel
will give up and stop coming ...
To rescue me ...