Dark thoughts
They cloud my mind
And make me sad
Where is the peace I’m trying to find?

Heavy thoughts
I shouldn’t be thinking like this
I don’t care about anything anymore
And the thought of death is becoming a bliss

I think I don’t really want to do this
But why can’t I get the thought out of my head?
Why is the only thing I think of when I feel like crap
The calm and quiet thought of death?

It isn’t suppose to be this way
Aren’t people meant to be afraid to die?
I thought I was too, and I think I still am
But it doesn’t matter, when I look up at the sky

I think that death is actually very sweet
Then you’ll at least be at peace and free
But then again there is no way of knowing that
No one knows what we will be

And that is what keeps me from doing it
The uncertainty of things that will be
So instead of taking my life
I would just like to go away, just flee

I am not strong enough
At least not right now
To deal with all the things
But I’ll have to somehow

Death is the easy way out
That’s why it is so appealing
Just make that decision
And you will loose all you’re feeling

That must be such a relieve
Never have to deal with anything anymore
Don’t have to think, to be, to feel
You will return to what you were before

A part of nature
What we were and will be again
When death takes us away
It not the question of how, but the matter of when

I can choose to do it now
Be freed from all the pain
It seems so easy
But there is a lot that will remain

Not with me, I will be gone
But with my family, and most important my friends
I think they will be hurt
So actually the pain doesn’t really ends

I will be free from it, that’s for sure
But it’s not fair to all I know
That’s also a reason of why
I don’t think I will go

Sometimes I want to, I won’t lie about that
The thought of death is such a bliss
But there are so many people
And other things that I will miss

That doesn’t even bother me
I don’t really care about that right now
But I know I can’t give up
I will get through somehow