How much worse can it get
Things keep piling up inside of me
I can’t handle it, no strength left
But there is no one who's able to see
I’m tired, my body, and inside my soul
I don’t want to continue this fight
Everyway I turn, things I do wrong
I would like to end it all, tonight
Nobody understands me, although I try to explain
They are worried, but cannot help me
So I don’t tell them a thing anymore
What’s the use, if they don’t see
What is really going on
I can’t tell them I’d like to die
All they say is we can’t help you
I know that, just listen, please, and let me cry
Even if you don’t understand, stand by my side
I need that, more than ever, right now
I’m breaking down, but you think I’m holding on
I wish I was, but I don’t know how
I can’t look ahead anymore
I don’t see a future for myself
All I do is try to live another day
By doing this, creating a protective shelf
Which I cannot sustain any longer
I need to let it go
This shelf is no longer safe for me
I need to let my true feelings show
They are quite simple, or so they seem
I am down, and I want to die
I don’t care as I used to before
And the only thing I can do is cry
Don’t see the use in staying
If the only thing I bring is pain
Or disappointment, for why I’m failing
And the reasons, I cannot explain
I’m done here, would like to move on
The hurt inside is too much to bare
The wounds get deeper, more and more
Look for help, but no one is there
Don’t be surprised
If one day, I’ll be gone, never to return
Gone to find some peace
Which I couldn’t find here, so I’d taken this turn
I hope you now understand
My hope and strength are gone, and I’m ready to go
I know you are not able to help
No one is, my soul already died though you didn’t know
The real me, she wouldn’t let it go this far
That the prove I’m not able to get well
For there is no better me, not any more
She’s already dead, and now I have to join her, farewell