I wanna feel pain
I’m losing it!
Becoming quiet
Feeling… nothing
It scares me
Feeling absolutely nothing when I’m supposed to makes me think I’m cold
I need pain to know I’m still breathing… alive
Pain to punish me for being not able to go on
Could you imagine, feeling love… even hurts more?
It’s unknown to me
Therefore it scares me
Not being able to change
Frightened for losing… me…
Not being able to control
Myself… everything around me
Pain hurts, love even hurts more
I’d rather
Stay alive, knowing
Feel pain