When I’m hurting
It’s easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me.
It’s easier for you to look trough me, than it is for you to see ‘ME’.
It’s easier for you to distance yourself, than it is to really care.
It’s easier for you to hear, than it is to listen.
It’s easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.
It’s easier for me to look away, than it is to let me see the feelings betrayed trough my eyes.
It’s easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk.
It’s easier for me to walk alone, than it is for me to risk rejection.
It’s easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held.
It’s easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won’t hurt me.
It’s easier for me to die, than it is to face life’s challenges.
It’s hard for me to smile when I’m hurting.
It’s hard for me to talk when you won’t understand.
It’s hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.
If only you’d really look at me and see who I am.
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away.
If only you’d hold me, without asking why.
If only you’d acknowledge the validity of my feelings.
But it’s the easy roads that are most often taken.
And so I hurt alone.