I'll await my fears though I'll cry in pain.
I'll run from sun and embrace the rain.
I'll reject your love and sigh at your hatred.
I'll smile and Act like it never mattered.
Then I'll pour my heart in my silent tears.
Facing yet again my hate and fears.
I'll pay every single day I live.
But only crimson tears I can give.
To you to make me pay for my deeds.
I'll surpress my joy, my urges my needs.
I'll love only myself and fight only for myself.
You'll say it sounds crappy,...but do you know with that...
I'm perfectly happy,