Without the past..
Have u ever wondered what life would be,
if you would stay in thesame world the whole time?
Have u ever wondered what life would be,
if you would cry yourself to sleep every single night?
Have u ever wondered what life would be,
if you would have to trust people who lied to you?
I wonder what it would do to me,
if I would get off the world, for just a single moment.
I wonder what it would do to me,
if I would go to sleep without that river of tears.
I wonder what it would do to me,
if I wouldn’t forgive the people who didn’t tell me the truth.
Never wanted to be alone,
in a little corner of my room.
Never wanted to make mistakes,
‘cause of my fear of disappointing thoughts.
Never wanted to be afraid,
of things that were chasing me.
I always wanted to be accepted,
not knowing corners.
I always wanted to do things right,
so that I could be someone to be proud of.
I always wanted to be strong,
without running away for the ones who’re chasing me.
Have u ever felt that you’re falling down,
and there’s noone who can help?
Have u ever felt that it seemed like u were invisable,
and there’s noone who can see u?
Have u ever felt that u don’t have a voice anymore,
because you just don’t know what to say?
I’ve felt that endless feeling of falling down the hill,
noone who could catch me.
I’ve felt that tearing feeling of not excisting,
noone knew that I was there.
I’ve felt that painfull feeling of the ability not to speak,
because I didn’t have anything to say anyway.
Every single time I wanted to break through,
something held me down.
Every single time I wanted to be myself,
the door of my shell didn’t want to open up.
Every single time I wanted to show the world what I can do,
I was paralyzed, couldn’t move myself.
Sometimes every single tear just floods out of my mind,
without even crying.
Sometimes every single sign of hope just flies out of my life,
without even living the real world.
Sometimes every single broken piece of my heart was just torned apart,
without resist.
I regret the things I shouldn’t have done,
don’t want to hurt anybody.
I regret the things I should have seen,
don’t want to be such a mess.
I regret the things I should have heard,
don’t want to be selfish.
Trying hard to find my own way, get over the past.
Trying hard to find the broken pieces of my life,
spreaded all around.
Trying hard to find myself,
no more hiding behind my mask.
Can’t do it alone,
now I know there are people who can help.
Can’t do it by myself,
now I know there are people who can catch me when I fall.
Can’t do this on my own,
now I know there are people who actually love me.
Just the way I am,
Just the way I can be,
More than I am now,
More than I can do now,
I will never forget the past, my own world.
I will never forget the little light I used to see.
In more ways I got stronger,
In more ways I do better,
In more ways I can be
Myself without the mask.
Myself without my problems.
I can be me.
Xxx Danique