Bang Keban


A ruthless voice breaks into pieces

Smashing the gates that hold your heart
That’s breaking apart
From all the confusion around this world
Never forgotten and please leave me be
But strange how the nightingale
Stops to sing
And never did bring
Peace in my mind
Or in your heart
That beats
So hard
And strongly for a girl
Who doesn’t even know who she is
Or why she won’t be his

Did a bridge collapse when I went to the other side?
The side of me who cares
Bout me and you and many more
Dripping and floating blood to the shore

I never made a decision
And I’m not really sure
Why I can’t trust myself

I’m insecure???

Maybe I should
Maybe I don’t
But past said I couldn’t
And past makes me want
To deny feelings
And cracks in the floor
The building will stand anyhow for sure

A garden is empty
Yet always filled with life
...
Like my heart


I need to break myself apart
For if I don’t
I’ll go and repeat
All the things they did on the street
Of my heart
The road so long
And very wrong
To kick and hit and beat up my mind
But why
Just why
Why are you so very kind?

Sir,
What is it you see?
In a strange little girl like me
Why can’t you stay away from the hell I’ll bring upon you?
Just ‘cause you can’t ever wear his shoe

Anyhow
A choice should be made
Sacrificing past or future
Making everyone lose themselves in self-righteous torture
And for whose sake

I don’t want him to break
...
Into
...
This
...
Little
...
Crumble-ish piece
Of mind

I don’t understand
What it is about me
That makes you so sweet
And caring
And loving
Jeezes
I can’t pretend

It hurts

For I do care a lot about you
And a tear falls down
For I know
That I will hurt you a lot
I should be shot
For HOW can I tie the knot?