her life was a mess
her head full of voices
her mind black as coal
her pain unstoppable

she couldn’t cope with the pain
couldn’t see it, couldn’t believe it
so she damaged herself
made the pain real

it began with a gash on her leg
but it kept getting worse
for every tear a scar came up
for every scar a tear fell down

she hid it pretty well
lived in her own painful world
nobody noticed anything
until that one black day

she felt more worse than ever
cut her arms like hell
blood kept running out her veins
and then she fell down…

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when she finally woke up
she knew she couldn’t go away
couldn’t leave her lovely friends
she knew she wanted to live

she asked for help
she talked, cried, lied
but she noticed one thing:
she didn’t cut as often as then

she held on to the future
made scars once a month
instead of once a day
she lived, she knew it!

although she had help
her problems were still there
sometimes she wanted to see blood again
but her desire to live was stronger

she never gave up
therefore she’s my hero
therefore I’ll love her
until the end of time

she has flashbacks
but won’t give in
to the force that will break her
will make her do it again

her past lays behind
her future is in her hands
the hands that hurt her so much
that hurt her future

the scars won’t fade away
won’t leave with the years
neither will my love for her
the love for my all time hero