Afraid of myself again,
the numb feeling coming over me.
A permanent pain coming to cover me.
Fears to take over me.
Afraid of my dreams,
the nightmares that haunt me in daylight.
I'm longing for a peacefull night.
Afraid of my feelings,
because I do not want to feel.
Not the feelings that are haunting me.
Fears taking over me.
Afraid of my life,
because it is all becoming to real.
I know my heart longs to flee.
But luckily I am welcome in the darkness.