That someone called me on my birthday, yesterday night
That someone gave me a fright
That someone who claims to be my dad
Who I haven’t seen or spoken with for more then 7 years, that made me mad
Its just so weird to hear his voice
He wanted to stay in touch, but told me it was my choice
After waiting those years for a phone call or a letter
I thought I would feel better
But I didn’t I felt so bad
Nor my questions where answered, that made me so sad
Now I don’t know what to feel or say
Just all these questions and most important , did he mean it? And this time will he stay?
And do I even want him to stay?
Or the feelings of the to times he left me if enough, and I want him to go away?
After talking to my aunt, it was a bit more clear
Now I just want her near
For me to get over my fear….
12-02-08