Tears ~Fake it~
(07-04-'08)

The morning comes as I wake up
But the light that shines, I can see it no more
I say to myself I’m fine and lie, but I’m not
My tummy turns around I cant eat no longer

So I put on a smile again
But deep in side you can hear me cry
Before I go outside
I must not forget
To put on my mask again

People ask me: "how are you?" I say:" I’m fine"
And I put on a fake smile again
I laugh and make fun of it
I pretend that I’m strong
But deep inside I’m dying slowly

When I get home, and I sit down
I put of my mask and cry
I started to scream and take some pills
In hope that it will ease the pain

For now I don’t want to have anyone
I tell myself I’m better of alone
But then my heart breaks down, my tears fall
And I cry deep inside “Please save me now”

I try to bare, but there are no more wholes to dig
And the memory of Him makes me scream
And my tears fall again, but no one hears
Can you help me out, this time?

And I beg from the inside
Hoping that I will see him one more time
And then my pain will finally go away
But the damage will always stay.