I am tossing and turning
Trying to get my rest, trying to dream
To forget all my worries..
To dream about a life I don't have
And never will have
Everytime I close my eyes
My eyes open again
Because
I keep thinking about what happened
Even though I don't even know
What exactly happened
Too many things happened
So many.. I thought I forgot some
But deep inside, I still remember them
In a way I don't know what it is
Like my heart doesn't wants me to be hurted
Like my heart is hiding it
But my heart can't fool me
I know what it's trying
I know but... I can't stop it
I can't stop the furious wind
That's going trough my body
Destroing
Every little happy memory I have
So I just wait..
Until the furious wind stops
Then I close my eyes
And fall asleep
Hoping this is the last time
I have to be awake again