"Substitution"
Copyright (c) 2009.02.14 by Werner Domroese
Was I your substitute for love
Someone to talk to
When you were lonely or upset
Why have you gone
Behind my back
Where you slander me
So viciously
I would not believe you to be so untrue
Are futile feelings not punishment enough
I now so painfully regret
This foolish face to face sincerity
I found the courage to be vulnerable
Subjected myself to humiliation
Allowed myself to open up and say too much
I should've lied
Hidden my affection
Kept the mystery
Although a tough guy's lie may be a coward's tool
It is inner truth that destroyed your integrity
Despite your claim of sense and sensibility
I used to be your strongest supporter
Your incorruptible protagonist
A reliable and useful friend
Now I'm but a fool
A former slave
The object of ridicule
Too much love has killed me
Lies, not truth, would've set me free
For I was used
Emotionally abused
But the disgrace is not yours to bear
For I am the one who let you
I have sacrificed my life that fateful day
Yet still I defend your honour
While you label me some obsessive creep
So much for being thoughtful and attentive
In every promise that I still keep
So ask yourself for whom the bell tolls
Shall I hear more, or shall I speak at this
Is the importance of being earnest
To be or not to be
Had I been dishonest
You would still be in my life
On speaking terms
Calling me when you need me
Like you have done so many times
But my feelings are not at all by choice
My life would still be agony
If not for what you've said or done
Just the same for what you haven't
Yet in redemption I would rejoice