It's like they don't care
While I just stare
Thinking about you
And still don't have a clue
It's like they all leave us behind
And I only want to find
The reason of you beeing sad
I'm trying to feel the pain that you had
It's like they just have no fear
While I'm trying to catch every tear
That I cry for you in my own shadow
And the sadness will grow
It's like I can feel their weakness
But I couldn't care less
I blame them for your death
And for stealing your last breath
Would like that they could see
How I feel and in the future will be
Just asking why
And trying to figure out why you wanted so badly to die
Those thoughts are keeping me up all night
And a little voice tells me that I have to fight
I know, little sister, that we had our fights
But you always had your rights
To be the only and sweetest sister I've ever had
But now you left, leaving me sad
I was hoping, we would stay together
And could make things better
There is no sister anymore to talk
No long 'together path' to walk
I have to do it all by myself, every year
That is the one thing that I mostly fear
Beeing alone in the end
No birthday cards to send
And every memory that I have of you
I will keep and remind to
The days that we laughed, cried and healed
Your smell and your voice are sealed
In the deepest of my torned up soul and feeling
I hope you've found your healing
Someday, I really hope to see again your face
I know it won't be here, but in some other place
A place where you're surrounded by love
But it's not my time, so I will look above
And tell you that I love you
That I will get through
And never forget
The important thing you said
If we would love you no matter what you had done
And we still do, but couldn't overcome
This last thing that you decided to do to let us feel
That some feelings just can not heal
Sissy, all of you in my heart I will keep
From the moment that I get up, till the moment I go to sleep