Always been afraid of you

I once was very lucky one day.
But now that all seems to fade away.
How did this start, the problems and the pain.
It just sticks in there like a big black stain.
I thought I’ve done everything you’ve asked of me.
I made some stupid mistakes and then you let me be.

What shall I do?
Where shall I go?
I’ve always been afraid of you,
Because of the things that you do.
I’ve always been afraid of you,
Because when I’m with you,
I never get through.
I’ve always been afraid of you,
Cause no matter what you did or said.
I never want to see you hurt like that.

I once was very happy one day.
Until you cut me up,
Because of the things you say.
You know you’re not healthy.
Still you want more.
What is it that you’re looking for?

Please help me to understand you.
Cause I’ve had enough.
I’m sorry but the love is gone.
I tried and tried, but still you gave me none

I hate you, because of the things you caused.
But I hate myself more
By seeing you hurt yourself stupidly.
But whatever I do we will never be happy,
Like we use to be.