I feel like getting insane
From all the emotional pain.
Losing my twisting way
Gives me no reasons to stay.
Shaking hands, flashing eyes
Represent my killing lies.
Accelerated heartbeat,
Shows how much and how I eat.
Close my eyelids, away from here
Gives me joy, a one-moment-cheer.
Correspond word by word this illogical note
Makes me forget what I pushed up through my throat.
But not a single word that I write
Explains the difficulty in my fight.
All alone in the darkness,
Alone in my progress.
People are all around me
But I seem to busy to see.
I’m not just a normal person anymore
By laying everyday on the bathroom floor.
I can’t deny no longer the truth,
It has destroyed my whole youth.
But I have to make this big confession:
It became more than my obsession.
I’m done with hiding my pain
Even if I know, it will contain.
It has me in its power
And not just everyday an hour.
Whole my do’s and don’ts depends on this
It makes that it is happiness I miss.
Deep in night, my curtains will fall
Nobody can break this wall.