words can't describe what I feel
when I'm alone with myself in the night
the tears that I hide in the day
show up when there is no more sunlight
I can't believe I am losing myself in this life
and my heart,it keeps getting emptyer day by day
and sometimes I'm just staring out the window
Hoping, praying, wishing they will once go away
my pillow is getting blacker after another night
And now my friends start to ask what is wrong
Never will I tell them, this is my secret wish
That I desperatly want to vanish, but I'm not so strong
I'm weak and scared to just end this all
But I can't go back like everything is alright
And now I'm caught in between life and death
So for now I'm just lying in bed, too tired to fight
too tired to stand up and pretend I'm okay
too tired, for everything..