To enjoy life alone
to me this is such a frightful prospect
I am so afraid to be alone
because in me dwell the demons
within the memories I own

But in truth it is what I truly desire
To be okay by myself
Not be burned by this wild-fire

In the company of others
I use their presence to get distracted
for in their influence I become free
My demons then seem to be extracted

In this illusion I have sat for years and years
Until the bubble burst as it surfaced my fears
I required to understand myself more and more
A lengthy process of which more is in store

And so in good measure
I need to call upon my demons
To learn to live with them by myself
Only then can I be sure

I do not want to be a solitary guy
But I don't want to fear it intensely
For me to be alone is to sit in my demons
which is disabling my potential immensely

And so I walk on, semi-alone
studying, exercising, whilst sometimes being prone
to the needs and fears that surface every now and then
and in those moments I acknowledge and express
But ultimately I will know a measure of peace within this mess

Resisting the urges to flee into the social scene
I subscribe to my needs and started planting seeds
to rebuild this desolate area starting with a little green