I wonder.
Cause now I feel so lost.
And don't get me wrong.
Because I give the world to you.
But this ripped my apart.
And I only want to be happy.
But it's hard.
I know you loved me.
I see that.
But why won't you say that?
Why won't you fight for me?
Does that mean I'm bad?
I'm not good enough for you?
I know that, that isn't the true.
Somewhere I know.
But it's hard to believe that.
My thoughts are sometimes so dark.
So sad.
I know that I can't give you up.
I can't!
"So if you say let him go.
That's better for you."
I can't.
Maybe it's better.
But I can't.
And when I'm with him.
I'm so happy.
But when I'm alone.
Every single thought breaks me inside.
Who should I believe?
If they said: "he got a second chance here,
but he didn't manage it."
But it make no sence.
Because I think he is a good Assitant Manager.
And others said: "That they have nailed him."
I don't know.
I have to believe on myself.
But that's the point.
I don't know if can be a good Assitant Manager.
He can good lead.
So what's the real reason that he isn't longer a assitant manager?
Nobody tells me.
When I ask Iget a vague answer.
I need to know.
But nobody tells me the truth.
Where is the truth?
I can't find it.
For the truth, I will give up everything.
But then still they will not say the truth.
So I guess that I have to move on.
And not think about it anymore.
And maybe it is fate.
And maybe if he is gone,
he dares to go for me.
Maybe it is then easier for him.
I don't know.
I have to wait.
But waiting is the hardest part for me..
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