it's been so long, so long
after all those years it seems
that you're only just gone
leaving us for the world underneath
all those years I've tried to bring you home
my pal, I've never felt so alone

I knew that you had enough of this life
long before you died
you shattered me with hope when you
when you told me all your lies
and still, your dead came as a surprise
when you, when you...

if only you had come with me to see the sun
you knew that I wanted you to come

if only I had known how to safe you
if only you had told me how to do so

why have you waited with your revelation
after all those years
how did you pass all those stations
without showing any fear

it's been so long, so long oh pal o'mine
I've been thinking through feelings
through lies, booze and knives
destiny... who cares, when there's no healing
knowing that this is just another day
another day without you by my side

it's hard to believe that it's been this long
after all those years it seems
that you're only just gone

there are tears behind my eyes
but I do not cry

In loving memory of Jasper
11-02-08