~Tired of life I’m crying out to God~

The edge feels so close by
I’m down to one last breath
I don’t want to go on anymore
Why should I anyway?

Everything’s changing
I don’t know how to deal with it
I cry out
Want someone to hold me
Though I’m afraid when somebody does
I don’t deserve someone to love me

All I need is some rest
Couldn’t the world wait for me?
It feels like I’m sleeping
I’m living in my own dark world

Of course I want to leave it
Outside my world everyone seems happy
When I look inside
All I see is pain and fear
Nobody may know about the scars I hide
Underneath my smile

I know Lord,
You know about it all
You wanted me to live this life
So teach me how to live it right

Show me how I can cry on Your shoulder
How I can make it through the days
Take away all my wishes
Containing my death and end
If You don’t want me to
End like that

‘Little girl, I’m here for you
I want to help you out of this
Remember pain is just for now
Giving up will be forever.’

Yeah, Lord, I know you love me
I’d do my best to stay alive
So I can live my life the way You want me to
Though it all feels worthless right now
I don’t feel worth any tear or smile
How can it be it’s all gone so wrong?

I’m sorry Lord
I really want to trust You
So teach me how to fight against my thoughts
And give me all I need to live my life right

‘It hurts me so much to hear
You are unhappy with your life
Why don’t you see how much I love you
How I care about you?
Give all your pain, fears and scars to me
I’ll take it away and make you whole!’

Thank You, dear Lord,
For encouraging me so much
I really know now You’ll be by my side
You will never let me go!

I don’t have to be afraid
To hate myself like this
All You want me to
Is live my life the right way
You’ll teach me how to
You want to tell me I’m all right.

Now I know
I have to stay alive
For God has a plan for me
I’ll be okay, some day!