Never go back..

I never felt complete, always searching for something but not knowing what or where to look. Now I've found what I was looking for, I've found it because of my interest but someone else had to open the door. Lead me in and took over control, else I would still not know because its hard to accept. It's hard to accept but even harder to forget. Never go back, just because once you have experienced you can not go back. You might not understand what I am writing about, but it is for those who know. And maybe, just maybe your own feeling will show you the same as mine. I explored and accept my deepest feelings, my deepest desires just because I had to. There no time to fight against, your mind and body will take over your normal thoughts. Living in a dream for real,feeling like you finally found home. Peace in your mind,now I will never feel incomplete. But ofcourse dreams don't last forever, well they can but not if you are me. I always destroy the things that make me feel great, I maked a mistake. an mistake with the worst effects that I should have known in advance, and actually I did knew.The mistake not to listen,not to the right feeling. I lost all I had, just because of that one big mistake. How hard is it to lose the dream and realize its your own fault? Can you live with the fact you knew, you just knew... You have to go on you have to accept but you can not forget. I wanted to hold on to my inner peace and forget the other things. I had to because what is an angel without his wings? But when you once had the confirmation, the expression of your deepest desires, acceptance, the most intense satisfaction of your feelings ... you can not ignore them anymore, you can never go back. I never let somebody into my deepest feelings, but once your control have been taking over you can not stop. How special it is to share, only if you dare.
I've found it again, different ofcourse it always is. Never will I stop letting my feelings take over, and still I need to learn so much. The feelings are so strong, I only need one touch. a touch, a word and I'm yours.. because then the feelings take over.
Never go back, just because I can't.