Out there in the distance of time

I can see a specter standing

it tries to communicate

to inspire a form of understanding

To convey something I should have known

something inside that always existed

a truth that should never be dismissed or disowned

it's message is vague and unclear

but it does give me a feeling of fear

unmistakably it tries to reveal

something inside, something I feel

These glimpses of it's message

these small happenings that occur throughout the day

they give me reason to pursue

a life lived - my own way

Repressed as I have been

Afraid to be me

unknowingly infecting the essence

that should have sparkled so beautifully

Afraid to follow my taste

afraid to trust myself

the specter in the distance concludes

that today brought about a change in fortitude

For it knows that once i'm aware

that the specter is present

that from that moment on

the distance between myself and I, is lessened