Afraid to Love,

On the outside it seems like I'm invincible, unafraid for whatever the darkside may hold up in his sleeves.
But the truth is that I want them to make that believe.
Cuz all this time I've been wearing a shield to defy, anyone who could turn out to be the love of my life.

Oh girl if you'd only knew, everything I have been going trough.
Till the point of no return, and that's exactly why it still burns.
I gave that special one all I had, but when things started to get rough between us she left me mad.
Mad because she let him interfere, that made the distance between us everything but near.
She left me in a weak moment, Just to end up with this guy who had this al planned out.
So what I thought was the love of my life, turned out to be nothing else than a lie.

Afraid to love,

No I don’t ever want to feel like that again, is what I thought every time something good were about to began.
That’s where my sweet sabotage kicked in, I don’t even know by which excuse to begin.
She isn’t pretty enough, funny enough, smart enough and so forth.
But what I really thought was that the girl I’d met not even a little bit of the heartache I remembered was worth.
So I would give up and go on to someone else every time I came too close, to hide the ugly truth as far as anyone knows.
Thus I put my shield up to defy, anyone who could turn out to be the love of my life.

Afraid to love,

That’s why I can’t shake off this feeling of solitude in my heart, even though I got all my friends beside me which I’ll never from part.
Even though I put my happy face on.
Even though I overcome everything standing in my way and act strong.
It’s just not enough.
I want to be truly happy again, glancing in the eyes of someone and say I love you again.
To kiss the lips of the one you call ‘schat’, to care for fight for and die for.
Someone to caress, tease and please .
Someone to make love with.
Someone who makes you laugh while you’re depressed, who believes in you when nobody does, who says you gotta go right while you wanna go left, someone who can handle a guy like me.
But still I put my shield up to defy, anyone who could turn out to be the love of my life.