you don’t know

waiting on the cure
nobody’s sure
maybe it never comes
and I’ll stay this way
nobody wants me
to keep that thought
everyone assures me
if you just keep on eating
everything’ll be okay

I’m not sure it’s true
know I’ve tried too long
still there’s no difference
my reflection’s the same
the voice in my head
starts to scream so loud
it’s hard for me to fall asleep
for so long you tried to convince
still I’m not changed at all

why does it seem so hard for you
to give up your dream
I may not get better
it’s possible, not inconceivable
I’ll stay as isolated and unhealthy
as you think I am right now
what does that mean to you
would you give up on me
stop loving who I seem to be?

just wait a little bit longer
you keep telling me
begging me to keep fighting
some day I’ll be stronger
would it hurt you if I said
you don’t know I’ve tried to
for so many years
you don’t want to know
I’m about to give up this fight

you don’t know
do you even want to know

what if you knew