~Never Mind~
made up my mind
it’s not staying this way
I can’t handle it
so I know what to do
taking drastic measures
loosing weight again
ignoring everyone around
already feeling all alone
the state I’m in
is too much for me
the feelings I got to cope with
- I can’t let go
angry as I am about it all
I turn it into hating myself
not wanting to, not liking it
just don’t know what to do
loosing weight is my way
to try to love myself
can’t wait till that day comes
so I’m gonna work at it
I know I know I know,
everyone will say it’s not healthy
the truth is I don’t really care
my caring about me is gone
far away, maybe there is a voice
little, fragile and lovely sound
saying things to calm me down
wanting me to listen
this voice, I call her Grace
is talking kind and always will
it’s my choice to listen
maybe, some day I will..