I know my walls are fortified
I know my heart is scarred
My senses are desensitized
My soul's windows are barred
My defense is my sanity
My wariness my crown
But even when I'd like to run
My shackles hold me down
Some days they are my barriers
Some days they are my cage
Some moments I feel happiness
The next, there's only rage
I'd love to share my thoughts with you
But thoughts often deceive
I neither trust my instincts
nor the things that I believe.
Sometimes I think I know myself
Sometimes I feel at peace
But always there's this part of me
That's yearning for release.
It feels like it protects me
But what's left to protect?
Outside I wander aimlessly
Inside I disconnect.