When I lay myself down in bed at night
I swallow my cold tears away
lonelyness has never felt so blind
I would be honest to you, if I'd dare to say

But I'm so frighten
though I haven't seen the ghosts for real
I feel it keeping me tight
and I know that I have to break free

But how can I reach that
with no one by my side
would everyone slowly forget
when I make an end to the tide

For death I'm praying to keep me warm
give me silence and a place to rest
The knowing that I'll never be in your arms
makes the going so worthless

I don't know if there ever would be someone near me
wondering if I'm good enough at all
why wounds show it, wether you're real, that I bleed, see

I wonder if someone will catch me when I fall