Day one


Slowly, more tears start to form behind my eyes..
I’ve had them since this morning..
Maybe it’s the lack of sleep, maybe it’s the worry..
It all reminded me a little too much,
Of a few years ago..

I’ve been keeping the tears in as much as I can,
But now I can’t stop them..
I’ve got to let them, even though I don’t want to..

I’ve been wanting to talk to you all day,
It’s a little difficult for me..
I’ve spoken to you almost every day lately,
Checking in, letting each other know how things are going.
I’ve been by your side for the final nights..

So it’s hard, to not hear from you now,
I’ve been dying to hear something from you..
Just to know that you are okay..
But I know that it’s better not to hear from me,
Just you and your thoughts, get them straight..
That is why I’m writing now, I need to get it out..

The first day isn’t even over yet,
It’s just been hours since I kissed you goodbye,
But I already miss you..

I’m still not sure what all happened the last 2 days,
But it felt really good, I felt safe with you..
Something happened between us,
But I need your answers to understand what it really was.

I know it’s just a few days,
And then you’ll be here again..
That is when I know there is no more turning back for me..
I promised you I would stop too,
And I promised myself..

But just like you had last night,
I now feel scared..
And it feels like I’m doing this alone..

I cross off day one,
Hoping we will be able to sleep tonight.
Knowing that there will be more days to come..