You would have known..

So many words that i said to you lately,
that ware all lies..
It isn’t as easy as I show it is..

If you only knew..
If you were able to look me straight in the eyes,
You would have known..

I failed myself once again,
And I’m not looking for redemption anymore..
I wouldn’t know where to find it..

I’m one step away of falling,
And I’m thousand miles away from recovery..
It’s so easy to take that step..

If giving in, would mean I lose it all,
I would give in..
Just to be done with this feeling..

The constant choice in my head makes me doubt,
But it already doesn’t feels like a choice anymore..
The decision has pretty much been made..

It’s with it,
without it,
or gone altogether..

And lately I’m hanging on the last choice..


So many words that i said to you lately,
that ware all lies..
It isn’t as easy as I show it is..

If you only knew..
If you were able to look me straight in the eyes,
You would have known..